What’s up y’all? So there’s a lot that’s been going on recently… A lot of realizations about the people I had as roommates, along with the realizations I’ve had about myself over the last year or so. To start with, I’m a patient person now. I have not always been that way; the thing about patience is that unless you exercise it you’ll never have more of it.
I’ve had plenty of reason to lose my temper and I certainly have done so with these roommates. There’s always been justification for my anger too, personal boundaries are important. Respect for those personal boundaries is exceedingly important. There’s this little intro part of a song by Thousand Foot Krutch that says something to the effect of if you don’t stand for something you’ll fall for anything.
Living in Idaho has taught me a great deal about who I am. What I’m willing to stand for and what I refuse to tolerate. I’ve learned things about the heart here and experienced my fair share of trauma. I think though that like Bilbo Baggins I’m quite ready for another adventure. It’s interesting too the name of Bilbo’s book… There & Back Again a Hobbit’s tale by Bilbo Baggins.
I feel like in my own way moving out to Idaho, going through all the experiences here? It’s prepared me for my coming home. Maybe I’m not a Hobbit, though I would say….I’ve always identified more with Aragorn. The wandering Ranger and heir to the throne. A throne he never really wanted, same thing as Jon Snow in Game of Thrones. These people never wanted to lead, which is exactly why they were followed. Out of Loyalty.
In terms of loyalty? There’s one person I definitely need to name is my brother Marcus. He’s been a huge support to me over the years and honestly he’s my best friend. (Yes Mom, you were right) This kid has a way of making people laugh.
Whether it’s cracking jokes about how the “instafamous models” taking pictures in just insane yoga poses should chill out with a cold dunk in the lake on vacation, or…..
Him just……appearing in your photos randomly. I swear this dude has the ability to put smiles on people’s faces. He’s certainly been a rock for me throughout my life. I’m going to miss just being able to go catch a movie with him or go and kill time watching Netflix when I just needed to get out of the house.
I’ll still be playing Battlefront and gaming with him, we’ll still talk but this is definitely one of those bittersweet realizations too. That once I’m moved I won’t be able to spend as much time with him. I guess that just means I’ll treasure the time I get with him now, when he comes to visit? Well I’ll treasure that time even more.
It’s weird seeing all my belongings be sold, boxed up, or donated. Kinda eerie actually realizing just how much of our lives can be boxed up so easily. It’s been a weird thing realizing that in the last three moves across the state of Idaho there seems to ALWAYS be some things that go with me. Photo albums, certificates from Taekwondo, journals or notebooks. Y’all know how it is, you get attached to things over the years.
You also learn a new way to prioritize what’s important to you. I suppose that’s one of those things about life too. The ability to re-prioritize what’s important in life is in my opinion a very important thing. AI’d rather spend time with family. Stuff can be replaced, pictures of family not so easy to replace.
I’ve started defining for myself the kind of man I’m going to be. Family, friends, heartbreak, trauma? It’s all part of the process. After all you can’t begin having wisdom until you’ve looked back on your past and learned from it can you?
Days are counting down until I’m moved back home and can breath. There’s still work to be done but I’m getting there y’all. Hope y’all are staying safe out there in this crazy world.
Rapha Yada my friends,
Richard
Holy Water, Burning Man 