Hey y’all, so couple things. Day before yesterday I was in the hospital. No, no I didn’t have the Coronavirus. It was diabetic related, diabetic ketoacidosis. Basically too much sugar leads to your blood being syrup. That’d be the very dumbed down version of explaining it. I woke up puking my guts up and ended up going to the ER for this.
Everyone was gloved up, masks and googles and face shields on. Now when I got there obviously the nurses asked if I was exhibiting symptoms of COVID-19. I was not and they stuck me in an ER room while I waited to be seen by a doctor. To be honest I’m overall not an incredibly patient person, so waiting in an ER room with a mask the EMT’s put on me was less than ideal.
Thing about hospitals is that you’ve got nothing but time to think. About literally anything and everything. For example with me some of my thoughts were. “Why doesn’t my mom let go of her bitterness and jealousy? What’s my path after I’ve moved back home to Indiana? Why can’t they sell fried pickle chips at fast food places?”
These questions rattling around in my head when all I want is sleep. I realize though that I don’t actually have to have all the answers. Scripture says in Psalms 46:10 “Be still, and know that I am God:I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”
Now while I was in the hospital getting IV fluids and whatnot I had just this sense of “Richard, be still.” clear as polished crystal. Now I’m aware of a tool called blue letter bible and I do highly recommend it. Now there’s a tool on this site where if you look up a specific chapter and verse you can see the original Hebrew word for certain things.
That bit that says “be still”? the translation is to the word rapha. Which means to be weak, to let go, to release. The command be still and know? It’s essentially God saying release control, let me lead you. Typically whenever I have a period in my life of rather radical change I tend to have faith become a huge thing.
Thing is? I hadn’t been as active in my faith until fairly recently. Which coincides with my talking with this gal. Y’all know the one I’ve been writing about. However I’ve got to say I’ve been thinking about my faith a bit differently recently. Almost like my relationship with God has deepened…. Like…..if you’ve been friends with someone a long time. Then you realize there a whole other level to that person that makes you understand and love them more.
My faith is and continues to be a huge part of my life. Even though I definitely haven’t been spending much time in the word. It’s….kinda weird, however I feel like perhaps God allowed me to experience the heartbreak I have so that I’d be a better man for whoever He intended.
I guess, from my perspective anyways that of all times. Never has it been more relevant to rapha. To release, let go. I mean everyone that seems to not have sanity issues what with hoarding toilet paper and cleaning supplies and all. I’m just saying, be a decent human….Be Still. Consider your actions y’all, they are far reaching.
In closing I’d like to leave y’all with these words and something to think about. Rapha Yada, Be still and know. Know that there are people who love and care about you, that this too shall pass. I wish y’all well my friends.
Much Love in Christ,
Richard
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