I feel like a lot of people in my life think I’m just an impulsive, barely controlled person. I’d like to disprove that point. See I’m a midwest boy, grew up in one of those fly over states. Y’all may have heard of it on account of our football team. The Indianapolis Colts. That’s right I’m originally from Indiana.
As I was growing up I spent a lot of time at libraries and watching movies or shows with chivalry being praised. Stuff like holding the door open, pulling chairs out for women or the elderly and silence in church. I have different morals than most people nowadays, my mom and brother will tell you I have issues with impatience and anger.
I humbly disagree, I wait for things worth waiting for and get angry over things worth getting angry over. For example I went all the way through high school without ever kissing a girl. To me it was worth more to wait for someone who actually meant something than just hitting up parties and making out in the halls. As it stands I didn’t kiss a girl until I was 24, didn’t have sex until I was 24 either.
Now most people have kissed someone in their teens, same with sex. Not me. I waited, and as it happens with many things in life? Certain things are worth waiting for. In case it wasn’t clear I didn’t end up with the girl I had my first kiss with. Same with sex. I spent a good couple years being angry at life, myself, until finally I realized that it was on me to ask for help from God.
Now I’m over here blogging, right now I’m dealing with frustration. With myself, roommates, and just life. The funny thing? There’s this girl. Isn’t there always a girl? Y’all read some of my recent blog posts it’s the same gal I’ve been referring to. Now most people would be dealing with wanting to date and go out with a good deal more frustration than me. As it sits? I’m actually not in a rush. Of course I want to meet this gal and go out with her. That being said, it’s more important to wait and just in the words of Frank Herbert’s Dune. Not fear. Fear makes us do stupid things, especially when we allow fear or any emotions to completely dictate our actions.
I went through some rough stuff with previous relationships, this gal from what we’ve talked about has too. I just….am at this point in my life. I know who God sees me as. I know rushing things is in the words of Shawn from Psych “bad juju magumbo” In any case, I rushed into relationships in the past and truth be told? Do yourselves a favor y’all, don’t rush relationships. It adds up to nothing but problems.
Right now the all I have to say is that when waiting is the hardest thing… Sometimes the waiting is what a true test of character is. Who you REALLY are is revealed through time.
Holy Water, Burning Man 